“I’m Better In Writing”

A few weeks ago I was talking with a friend and she told me that I should start speaking to groups about my process with grief and loss and how I’ve been able to hold on to my faith in God. My response was, “I’ve always been better in writing.”

How many times do we see in the Bible where different people try to tell God that they aren’t qualified because of an excuse? Something that they don’t consider themselves to be talented at or an insecurity or mistake that they want to hide?

The truth is none of us are qualified to do God’s work, we can only submit to Him and ask him to use us. And when we ask God to use us, be ready to be uncomfortable. 

So on Friday I was asked by a family friend if she could share one of my blog posts during her virtual house church zoom, she added that if I wanted, I could speak as well. At first I told her I would pray about which one she could share, as I was reading through them and seeking discernment, I kept getting this feeling like I needed to talk myself.

As I was praying about what to share, I realized there was no way that I could share about this season without talking about other seasons that God was sowing and cultivating seeds in my life, that have helped me navigate my current season.

I was vulnerable, I shared parts of my life that no one knew about unless they were present, I was transparent with my struggles and pouring out all parts of my heart to God.

On a day that was rainy and cloudy, filled with two sides of heartache and celebration, God knew I would need an extra push out of bed and gave me a purpose to talk about His love and faithfulness. 

And as I mentioned yesterday, it is during my times of pain that I feel Him the closest, may I never forget that feeling and always yearn for Him to be this close.

You can view the video here. ❤️