Grief+Corona+Justice+Wisdom Teeth=Father’s Day
Life
Grief is not something that you can choose or control. It is thrust upon you without your consent or regard for how it will affect every part of your life.
A global pandemic and lockdown is similar, as we have learned this year.
Less than a month after being thrust into this new journey of grief, we were all given a new set of rules to live by, 6 ft apart, mask and gloves, wash your hands, groups smaller than 10 people...
I already didn’t have control of what had happened in my life, now I was losing control of what I could do if leaving my house. So I didn’t leave. I stayed where I could control what I wore, how close I was to people, if I wanted to sunbathe and not just keep walking etc. It was a small amount of control I could still feel like I had.
I would tell people that I didn’t want to go anywhere that I had to wear a mask and they would say, it’s just a mask. But it wasn’t and I might sound crazy but it was another part of a decision in my life that was no longer my own. I needed to feel like I had some control, even though I knew I really didn’t.
Then the world erupted and what the devil wants to use to tear us further apart, God is using to prune and refine us like we’ve never seen before, in my generation.
I decided through all of this to get my wisdom teeth removed, might as well pour on the pain and hope that I’m good for at least the rest of 2020. The experience was like no other, even though I’ve been through childbirth 3 times without any pain medication. But thankfully my recovery has gone really well with little pain after the first day. Thank God.
Anthony Simpson
One constant on this earth in our family through it all has been Anthony Simpson, from holding me up when I barely had the strength because my heart had been ripped out of my body, to always trying to pull us together to watch movies as a family or play cards or scheduling our family counseling to ensure that we had different tools to work through this season individually and together.
Leading the way in our family renovations, sometimes against our opinions(which is why we now have a golf simulator in our living room...), willingly doing all the errands and grocery shopping bc you didn’t force me to face the world(and I know you like to be busy).
Running back to Publix and Walgreens a million times for all the rare ingredients for Alayna’s gourmet dishes, scouting out lychee and mangos, keeping the freezer stocked with every kind of Telenti flavor, except for the random weeks you decide you are on a diet. Lol
Making sure I have all my soft food options, making popcorn for movie nights, mango smoothies, omelettes that I have to pick a million things out of, taking care of Charlie on early mornings when the girls and I sleep in.
And not to mention being the jack of all trades and fixing and solving all the issues and projects the girls and I come up with around the house (your screwdrivers are in the bathtub 😘).
Thank You
Thank you for keeping our family going through it all, when we could have just shut down, you keep the girls excited about life. Thank you for finding strength for us all, even when at times you are fighting to find strength for yourself.
God chose you to be the father of our 3 wonderful children(and any more we bring under our wing in the future). I know this season has brought you the most unexpected and heartbreaking experience as a father but you have handled it with strength, love, vulnerability and hope for the future for our family. Thank you.
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